Yearning

Yeah how?
How am I supposed to "not be discouraged"?

God,
I can't see You
I can't hear You
I don't know what You are doing
I
   am
      so
         lost

Am I just supposed to keep going blind?
But how?

Please...
Show...
Give insight...
What
   has robbed my hope
   my faith
   my confidence to get up and face it
      to take on the day

Well
Maybe I know what has robbed it
Partly anyway
So
What do I do now?

I try to pray
I'm so agitated
All I can do is try
With what I know
And with a heart that leans in
And trust Your kindness
   and compassion
To receive
Even when it feels like
   not enough
   or not quite right