Remember Your Love

How do I forget so easily

How can I STOP forgetting

How can I learn to constantly remember

That You really do love me

Your love

It’s everything

My joy

My hope

My purpose in living

It’s what I have

The only thing I have

To share with anyone

It’s the only reason

I can face anyone

Face the world

In spite of my failure and shortcomings

And You have proven Your love

Again and again

In history

In the countless times and ways

You have whispered it to my soul

In the ways You have

Provided

And guided

All the days of my life

So why do I doubt

Why do I forget

How can I stop forgetting

It came slamming at me this morning

In the resistance I felt to that prayer

Resisting the “giving You everything”

Only “Your love and Your grace”

As enough

Ah, it disturbed me

What I saw inside my heart

Thankfully

You showed me again

It didn’t take long

A simple review

A trip down memory lane

Revisiting things You’ve said

Along this journey

And everything changed

As I remember Your great love for me

Your promises to be with me always

How You have never broken that promise

You have never give me reason to doubt You

And yet I forget so quickly

Oh, I’m sorry Lord

How can I remember

How can I keep remembering

Somehow…

I think “contemplating the love of God”

Needs to become a part of my morning ritual

Every day

And then I need to revisit during the day

And in examen at night

Until my life is so formed by it

Until I am so utterly filled with joy

Unshakeable joy

Overflowing joy