All the dreams that haven't happened

I don't know why it's there...

Suddenly, open, in Word...

A document from ... before...

Back when we were planning

When there was excitement

About doing things together...

But that is over now...

That one...with them...

And it hurts

And I think of others

How many times that has happened

What do I DO with all of this

What am I supposed to do?

How do I find hope again?

Why should I try?

Or think that if I do try again, with others,

That somehow it might actually go forward?

These are memories...that haunt
That hurt
Lord, what do I do with these--
Memories of hopes...raised, then dashed
And the dreams and visions 
That invite (or is it taunt?) me now?

(mostly written Dec. 23, 2015)