Known

"I Shall Know Him"

I enjoyed the song today

Showed up on my FB feed

"...by the prints of the nails in His hand"

I get it...it's a song of thankfulness

For what You've done Jesus

And I thank You

But I don't think I'll need to search

To look at Your hands

To check

To make sure it's You

I suspect

I'll know You

Just by looking in Your eyes

Knowing that You know me

You, the only One who has known me completely

Loved me completely

I shall know You, 

And be eternally thankful

For how You have known me

And walked with me

Ever-loving

Ever-guiding

And all You've done for me

I shall know You

And I shall love You

Wrecked

Wrecked
Again

By a vision that wasn't mine

It was theirs

They were supposed to do it
But now it falls to me
To carry
Until the time is right
Until the Lord parts the sea
Opens a way

Wrecked
Not just by that vision, their vision
But also by...the original one
How it pulls at my heart
How it embodies so many stories
So many hopes and dreams

And wrecked
By how "impossible" it all is

I submit myself, again Lord
To You
And an impossible dream
An impossible vision
That can never happen
Unless You enable
Unless You empower
Unless You provide the resources

And it will never produce fruit
Fruit that will last
Unless You breathe into it
Unless You give it life
Unless You are the one that directs
Unless Your wisdom leads all decisions

Lead Lord
And continue to "wreck" me in the process

This post started and felt Aug. 25...written Sept. 1

How long do I have?

How long do I have

How long will I live

People die all the time

Some young

Some old

Thinking I have a 'vision' that will take another 15 years

Is no guarantee

When I go

What will I leave

What will remain

What will keep living

Long after I have breathed my last

Unless a grain of wheat falls into the ground

   and dies...

May there be something

    much even

That lives on, and on, and on

Forever

Never dying

(rambling thoughts after seeing a news piece...someone dies at 49...just 4 years older than I...)

23?

Twenty-three

Is that how many You want us to take in?

Who are they?

Please bring them

We've already met most of them

Help us discern

And if we haven't met them yet

Bring them to us

Who are they?

Lord, let them be the ones

Who need healing

Who want to be free

Who are willing to receive

Who will grown

   learn

   become strong

And then be the ones

Who will be strong to help others

Who will be truly transformed

Only twenty-three?

Choose them well

For the future

Ones who will invest their talents

And reap great reward

Who will return the "much" that you require of them

Because You will give them much