Yearnings...

Yearnings...

These yearnings come

Yearning to be more

Yearning to have joy again

Yearning to live

enthusiastic 

once again

I yearn to throw off this heaviness

This never-ending wondering

and struggle

and searching

and 'trying to figure out'

for LIVING

living somehow enthusiastic and free

once again.

Are my memories deceiving me?

Maybe it was never as "light" and free as I'm imagining.

My "intense" personality has always been a little angsty

(This post...perhaps not complete...Written Nov. 5, 2017, posted May 2018)