God, is it You?

God, is it You?

Is it You that has called me?

Is it You that spoke?

Did You speak to me through Isa. 58

Leading me to think that the next decades 

   will be spent

   doing that

   there

If it was You

If You want me to do this

(and I have no other possibilities 

or options going through my head right now),

Then You're going to need to provide

I suppose You know all that is needed

I suppose You know all about

...the ideas

...the people

...the money

...the buildings

...the organizational structures

...the coordination

...the communication

and whatever else

that will be needed. 

Yeah, so, if You want this done...

Please lead me

Please show me 

What to do

How to live

And please hold me

Calm

At peace

Torn

It's that feeling again

Of being ripped apart

Having life to live 

And people I love

   on two sides of the ocean

I like each of the places

   when I am there

I can be excited about the other place

   when I think of it

And yet the leaving is hard

And seems to get harder

It's inevitable I guess

Unless I were to

   disengage my heart