Tears will pave the way

I often feel like

When I'm crying, or

When the tears come

Then I am really living

I don't know why

I know a lot gets stuck inside

And it it somehow "hits" me

I feel it

I feel it all*

And it's all jumbled

   immense

   overwhelming

   confusing

Life...

My brain seems to spend a lot of time

Trying to figure it all out

Make sense of it all

But I can't

And I probably won't

Maybe when I cry is when I see reality

It IS big

And I can't figure it out

So just feel it

Acknowledge 

   the pain

   the challenges

   the impossibilities

Let it out in the tears

And then

Pick up and go on

The tears are when I've named it, owned it

And only when I own it

Can I live it

Yep, tears are really living

Tears will pave the way forward

*Maybe this is part of being in the "gut" (8, 9, 1) group on the Enneagram?

(May 30, 2018--discovered in 'drafts.' Not sure why I didn't post earlier)